Have You Ever......

Have you ever been in a situation whereby one minute everything is ok & the next minute you're in the middle of a war zone and you're left wondering, 'what the heck just happened here?!'.

It happened to me last night.

My first reaction was to give that person all I had in me, but I am trying to live the scripture James 1:19 & decided now was the best time to demonstrate holding my tongue.

Okay, so the slow to anger part of that scripture didn't work because I was fuming! I personally don't think it's right to attack somebody on things said 6 months or more ago, especially when things since then have evidently changed. It's ridiculous. How does one begin to defend themselves when they can't even remember when or in what context those words were said?!!

Deep breath!

So I continued to say nothing and anything I did say I ensured it was measured and calm.

And do you know what? I found peace. In all of that, I knew I hadn't put myself in a situation of saying something I would later regret. I was able to come away from it & go over it again objectively and most importantly I was able to sleep at night without feeling this HUGE burden.

I just hope that the other party has that same kind of peace.

Pray for me, as I pray for you x

It Has Been So Long!......And Guess What?

I cannot believe it has been over a year since I have posted anything onto this blog. Once I tell you what has been happening I'm sure you will understand my absence.

I am getting married in 6 weeks! It has been a journey to say the least! I think if any woman wants to find more about herself and doesn't know where to start, plan a wedding.




Like most young women, I dreamt of the big wedding, with the gown, all the trimmings and all my friends and family around me. And that's exactly what I started to do. I had booked the biggest, poshest venue in my area, the most expensive photographer and sourced the most gorgeous dress custom made all the way from Europe.

But then the penny dropped. It happened when sorting the guest list with my very-soon-to-be-husband. I realised it was important to just have those closest to me and my significant other, those who had shared the journey with us to get to that point. Both of us are 'keep to yourself' type of people and we thought doing it this way would be easy.

No it wasn't.

By the time our parents got hold of the list, people were being added who one or both of us hadn't seen since we had been courting (which was over 2 years ago). My notion of a big wedding turned into resent. I realised that I didn't want a big fanfare and practically begged for several months for us to just up and elope, to me that would've been more romantic then dealing with the pressures of pleasing potential demanding guests.

So, to cut a LONG story short. I have spent the past 12 months, changing jobs, moving house and planning for one of the BIGGEST days of my life.

It has been an emotional, turbulent and yes, an enjoyable experience. I definitely know now though that if I am ever faced with an event in my life that requires that magnitude of attention. I would most definitely do things very differently.