Have You Ever......

Have you ever been in a situation whereby one minute everything is ok & the next minute you're in the middle of a war zone and you're left wondering, 'what the heck just happened here?!'.

It happened to me last night.

My first reaction was to give that person all I had in me, but I am trying to live the scripture James 1:19 & decided now was the best time to demonstrate holding my tongue.

Okay, so the slow to anger part of that scripture didn't work because I was fuming! I personally don't think it's right to attack somebody on things said 6 months or more ago, especially when things since then have evidently changed. It's ridiculous. How does one begin to defend themselves when they can't even remember when or in what context those words were said?!!

Deep breath!

So I continued to say nothing and anything I did say I ensured it was measured and calm.

And do you know what? I found peace. In all of that, I knew I hadn't put myself in a situation of saying something I would later regret. I was able to come away from it & go over it again objectively and most importantly I was able to sleep at night without feeling this HUGE burden.

I just hope that the other party has that same kind of peace.

Pray for me, as I pray for you x

It Has Been So Long!......And Guess What?

I cannot believe it has been over a year since I have posted anything onto this blog. Once I tell you what has been happening I'm sure you will understand my absence.

I am getting married in 6 weeks! It has been a journey to say the least! I think if any woman wants to find more about herself and doesn't know where to start, plan a wedding.




Like most young women, I dreamt of the big wedding, with the gown, all the trimmings and all my friends and family around me. And that's exactly what I started to do. I had booked the biggest, poshest venue in my area, the most expensive photographer and sourced the most gorgeous dress custom made all the way from Europe.

But then the penny dropped. It happened when sorting the guest list with my very-soon-to-be-husband. I realised it was important to just have those closest to me and my significant other, those who had shared the journey with us to get to that point. Both of us are 'keep to yourself' type of people and we thought doing it this way would be easy.

No it wasn't.

By the time our parents got hold of the list, people were being added who one or both of us hadn't seen since we had been courting (which was over 2 years ago). My notion of a big wedding turned into resent. I realised that I didn't want a big fanfare and practically begged for several months for us to just up and elope, to me that would've been more romantic then dealing with the pressures of pleasing potential demanding guests.

So, to cut a LONG story short. I have spent the past 12 months, changing jobs, moving house and planning for one of the BIGGEST days of my life.

It has been an emotional, turbulent and yes, an enjoyable experience. I definitely know now though that if I am ever faced with an event in my life that requires that magnitude of attention. I would most definitely do things very differently.

Crowing Glory Amongst Other Things

I really want to talk about something that I have done and it's bad....real bad!

This week I have NOT been looking after myself at all. Partly it's my fault and partly my schedule (which could be deemed as my fault too).

Ok, so normaly on the weekend, usually a Saturday morning or Sunday afternoon, I stock up on my food supplies for thr week. I've learnt to plan everything, even my meals because I tend to waste alot of food (and money) when I just go with the flow. However, last weekend I couldn't as I came in late on Friday night, was up at 7am Saturday morning to wash and deep condition my hair. I then had to run all over Birmingham to get presents and cards etc for my Godson and Dad who happened to have birthday parties on that very same day. I didnt get home until 6.30am Sunday morning and then had to be up again as it was Mothers Day!

So, didn't get any shopping.

This week I have done a total of 42 hours of work literally been working from early in the morning until late evening and haven't had the energy to cook...so I have been ashamedly been living off takeaways, crisps, chocolate and anything I can grab my hands on.

Today I am detoxing....water and fruit teabags...that's it!

I know because of the bad eating my hair has suffered big time and I feel terrible about it so even though I have a busy week ahead of me I am making a concerted effort to get back on track...I'll keep you updated with my progress.

xxxx

Wow....Finally Here!

I cannot believe I am doing this. It has taken me ages to decide whether or not me doing a blog will be beneficial to anyone or anything. But today I took that impulsive step to just 'go with the flow' and  do it.


Why not?


I like writing and read enough blogs to know what to do, so here I am!


What to expect from my blogs.....


....A whole load of everything. I am a Christian and contrary to popular belief it ISN'T easy. So I'll be sharing my journey on my quest for peace within my life (which I think I have now, but maintaining it is a challenge!).


I also will be sharing what is going on in my life. I actually started this blog at the right time as I am at a very pivotal point in my life right now. I have just finished studying my degree (well I finished last year) and I'm about to be wed (stress and excitement rolled into one). I've gone natural and am now on a mission to grow my hair for the big day (might seem like nothing to you...but trust me this is a BIG deal for me!). I'm FINALLY starting my business AND also embarking on a quest for another job (being an employee), whilst deciding the shortest route for me to get into teaching Secondary English (I'll explain in another post why this is).


So as you can see there is ALOT going on in my life and I'm happy and thankful to just have that medium where I can share all the things I LOVE and HATE about being me!


xxxxxx